failure is success???

assalamualaikum semua..

berusaha untuk berjalan dari hari ke hari walaupun banyak kegagalan yang ditemui..
is right from 'that' song, failure is success??
but until now, i cant see where my success hide..
the one that come to me is failure..
sampai kadang-kadanag aku takut untuk berdepan dengan kegagalan itu..aku takut untuk mencuba sebab takut denggan kegagalan..
awak tak rasa every each kegagalan yang saya hadapai dari dulu..
awak tak rasa macam mana semangatnya saya pergi interview, interviewer bagi harapan kat saya tapi at last, its nothing..u guys never felt that..
i think everything in this world against me..have u ever felt that?
have u ever felt when night comes, and u alone at your bed, u only want to cried until morning because success did not come yet?
yes...everyone can say 'sabar..sabar e'...but only me know how this feel..
sometimes i felt that i dont want to do anything, dont want to keep climbing..i only want to give up..

but i know..THEY are beside me...
and HE will always give me HIS kurnia on one fine day, Insyaallah..

even i smile, i laught..but inside i feel like im dying....